My mom had the chance to speak up for me when I had the confrontation with my brother and father.

Tears were flowing like crazy as I struggled to tell my dad the favourtism that he had showered upon my brother and the neglect that I had to deal and live with.

When my dad and brother insisted that my thoughts were prejudiced and corrupted, blaming Christ along the way for my 'wayward' ways and my 'abandonment' on the family, I asked my mother to speak as she saw what I was going through and had seen the silent contributions that I had made for the family all these while. She WAS there and she can be my witness. But she chose not to. She chose to watch me builled to think I am wrong and God is this horrible person in my life while she tear in a corner with her tissues.

Her tears are useless to me.

She had the chance but she blew it.

It's betrayal to me in every sense of the word.

My first meal upon arrival to Baiyun Airport, Guangzhou. By the way, they serve huge portion of food and their utensils are long, somewhat like  those of the Koreans.



Moi and my travelling partner Su. I have loads of stories to tell when it comes to her.



One of my agents, Kathy. She looks super young but she is a mother of a 6 year old girl! My gosh*.
Part of the things-to-do on this trip is involved PR duties. Had to squeeze in meetings with 2 other agents. Thank goodness they were nice so the meetings were really painless.


The second ( final) stop of this marketing trip was in Nanning, a city state of 1 million people. The urban planning of this place is somewhat like Singapore. Trees and flowers were aplenty. But I cant say the same when it comes to the people's attitude. I had some of the nastiest experience in this place. Shouting and pushing at the airport. Maybe it was just the night and the works of tiredness that were in play that very day.


3 of the undergraduate-helpers with whom I had the chance to share with about my faith. ^.~ My chance meeting with them is the most fruitful part of this trip.



This is Nanning's version of fast-food. It's really fast. And yes, it's Chinese style complete with vegetables and soup at a cost of RMB 11.80.

Not many photos were taken because nothing really outstanding happened anyway. It's work after all.

Till the next trip....No more Su...

I am just a poor girl with the silly invoices at hand.

Just show me the money! Save me the cock and bull story as I am not a finance person but that dont take me as a simpleton.

The work processes are so riddled with roadblocks as result of clashes of ego between bosses that it has reaches a point of standstill.

Standstill! Cards are not tapped, cheques are not issued on time, reimbursement takes ages to come, people dont report to work on time etc.

Simply disgusting.

I am so tired being caught in this rubbish.

Time to go home....

Where is the Love?!

It's time we reflect why the gospel has lost its beauty in the eyes of the pre-believers.

The beauty of the gospel is not lost. It's just the people who bring the gospel to others

Sg you need to turn back before it's too late.

I have access to blogspot again!

throw confetti*

As of today, my IT manager has blocked access to blogspot. To the users of blogspot, I mourn at the fact that I cannot read your beautiful entries anymore~

Hey folks,

Today marks the start of the 40 days fast and prayer season !!. wooOhoOOO~ exciting times ahead!

If you would like to have a hardcopy of the booklet, text me, I can post it to you. You can access the electronic copy online at the hyperlink attached below:

http://www.lovesingapore.org.sg/

My very 1st spiritual birthday! 

Remembering the joy of my salvation and the love covenant I have with him.

Photos courtesy of Dkohs



Getting ready to be dunked



 

Brother Wee Peng and Cam Yew, who shares the same spiritual birth date as moi

  





 

My spiritual companions in christ and the community that I am blessed with.

Jesus. Thank You.

I thought I would blog about my business trip to Guangzhou and Nanning. But I have other stories to tell.

Elitism has its goodness but its fangs are lethal as well. It penetrates every part of us controlling our soul and mind. Singaporeans are very indoctrinated with it. My family members are unfortunate victims of elitism.

Coming back from Guangzhou, I discovered my cousin who is 29 years is married!

He couldnt find a Singaporean woman who will marry him, overlooking his income and academic achievement. He wanted so much to have his own family. When my godparents broached the topic, he was more than happy to comply with it. Went to an agency in Golden Mile, flew to Vietnam, within a span of 7 days, he got himself a mail order bride.

This mail bride arrangement thingy was shrouded in so much secrecy that none of us in the extended family know about it. To think that my dementia-plagued grandmother had been harping to my dad that my cousin had gotten married. My dad was thinking it was just a figment of her imagination. But it turned out to be true! They DID bring the mail bride to see her!

By the way, the mail order bride was actually chosen by my godfather. She was one out a four possible choices that were presented to my cousin.  He was 'spoiled' for choice so my godfather decided to call the shot, hoping to find the right girl who would not take advantage of him.

I cant help but feel so sorry for my cousin. He couldnt succeed in a society which strives on elitism and now as a result of it he can't find the love of his life as well.

The fangs of Elitism...Elitism...

I came home to the upseting news that ah ma was in the hospitalised during the period of my absence due to lung infection. Being away for long is tough.

I am so glad that I will be away from office soon.

I snipped my own fringe again.

Just cannot get down to fasting seriously. Lord, give me strength to seek Your face. I love the joy of meeting You in my weakness.

It's always a heartwarming sight to see students of different nationalities being best of friends and hanging out together.

On my way down the winding road of Kuala Lipis, God gave me a burden to learn to read and learn the bible in Chinese Language. I kept this in my heart, seeking for more confirmation. Learning to speak the spiritual language in Chinese is, after all, still a daunting task to me even though I am effectively bilingual.

Confirmations come fast and furious!

1st confirmation: Ps Norman was reciting the beatitudes in Mandarin during our fellowship time. It was effortful on his part but  it definitely a brave attempt. He wants to learn to preach in Mandarin so that it becomes another tool in the mission field.

2nd confirmation: The constant nagging feeling from the Holy Spirit to pick up the English-Chinese bible which Pei Hua has blessed me as part of my baptism.

3rd confirmation: GDOP, Chinese service which I attended with Cam Yew, Keng Lun and Fionna. The repeated calls during the time of prayer for the new generation of youth to arise and reach out to the Chinese/dialect speaking population really broke my heart.

Guess this burden is mine to take.

Dear LORD, please come and help me as I take my little steps to learn your word in Mandarin. Grant me that gift of tongue. In Jesus' name amen!

Ok.... now it's time to find my Chinese dictionary!

Jesus, What a Beautiful Name, Tanya Riches

Jesus, what a beautiful name
Son of God, Son of Man
Lamb that was slain
Joy and peace, strength and hope
Grace that blows all fears away
Jesus, what a beautiful name

Jesus, what a beautiful name
Truth revealed, my future sealed
Healed my pain
Love and freedom, life and warmth
Grace that blows all fears away
Jesus, what a beautiful name

Jesus, what a beautiful name
Rescued my soul, my stronghold
Lifts me from shame
Forgivess, security , power and love
Grace that blows all fears away
Jesus, what a beautiful name

Justice is restored, take away the bittersweet after taste which continues to linger. Allow forgiveness of Christ to reign in my heart. Amen.

It's crazy but hang in there.

Show them your bushido spirit!